Happy Halloween!

I absolutely adore Halloween, I honestly think it's my favorite holiday. When I was younger it was about the candy (of course), as I grew up it became about the idea that I could be whoever I wanted for just one night (and still a bit about candy, I assure you.) Now that I'm a mother it's about transforming my sweet babies into whatever they want to be for the night (and about getting whatever I want out of their candy! Lol!). Seriously though, It was my 21st birthday when i found out that I was pregnant with Izaak. I was partially freaked out and devastated (because it was definitely not part of my plan!) but once I calmed down I was so excited... I was so... young minded. Not to say that I was too young to be bearing and raising a child, but I was definitely not ready for it when I first found out. The pregnancy was exciting (as you know if you've read my previous posts) and the first few weeks and even months after he was born were so surreal and amazing. Don't get me wrong they were also scary and frustrating at times, but I honestly didn't "feel" like a "Mom." I felt like... a kid playing house with my doll... Not a lot changed for me. I worked hard before he was born and I worked even hard after he got here, so there wasn't a spectacularly drastic lifestyle change or anything like that. The first time I seriously felt like a "Mom" was Izaak's second Halloween. (His first Halloween he was only two weeks old, so I was still in the whole surreal stage.) He was dressed as a puppy, just barely over a year old, and I was about 3 months pregnant with Evie. I put him in this little red wagon and drug him all over town. We took pictures at the fire station with the fire trucks, and had to feed him dum dum pops constantly to keep him in the wagon. I took him home early, fed him, bathed him, put him to bed early, and sat on my front porch and handed out candy to all the little trick-or-treaters... and at that moment, with the door cracked so that I could hear my baby if he woke up, in the cool comfortable golden light of a gorgeous fall evening, with my cup of coffee and bowl of treats... I felt like a Mom. It just hit me. The realization that my happiness no longer came from myself, or from the things that I did for myself, but that they were so completely centered in on that sweet little sleeping boy in the house. It happened without me even being conscious of the change. I had grown from a self-centered young woman who did what made her feel good in order to be happy, into a mother. A woman who puts everything about her child first, not because she has to, but because THAT is what makes her happy. This is the real reason that I am so in love with Halloween.

So, of course I took the time out to make my children Halloween costumes. They turned out to be completely adorable, and I am super freaking proud of them!

Evie wanted to be a pretty pretty pink pink princess. (That's exactly what she told me, folks. Exactly.)

So that's exactly what she got! This is the first time she wore it, and it was gorgeous, but a bit too big and a tiny bit too long, so I altered it and added some more fullness to the skirt. :D

Heavenly and magical. Halloween is my favorite!!!

Izaak wanted to be The Flash. (After MUCH deliberation, that is. He was almost Batman, or a spider, but finally settled on being The Flash. I thought he was NEVER going to decide! Lol!)

He's so tough and strong!!! <3

He kept twisting his mask around on his face, but I loooooovvvvve this picture anyways! 

He's so freaking cute! <3 <3 <3 

Happy Halloween, folks!